i know my mountain mover

i'm facing a mountain. it's big. and with each passing day, this mountain looks bigger. rougher. insurmountable. 

the other day, i thought i had figured out how to get around it, or minimize it to a manageable size. i made a decision and made plans to try to change my circumstances. i was certain that doing things my way would make a difference in this mountain. 

and then, the very next morning after making this decision and these plans, of which i was so proud of, God told me not to do anything except to trust Him. God very clearly woke me from my "what am i going to do? will this work? is this a good idea?" thought-fog and spoke to me, urging me to trust His plan. He held up a stop sign telling me not to go forward with my plans, and held out His hand for me to take and go His way. 

i was taken aback by this, thankful for His presence. i want to obey God. i want to trust Him wholly. so i cancelled my plans, i reneged my decision.

i walked away from that place of selfishness plan-making and walked towards God in amazement of His  faithfulness, completely submitting to His will. it seemed so obviously the right thing to do.

and then, the voices.

those little lying voices. they tried to convince me that God had given me my original plan and i should stick with that. the voices gave me a long list of pretty convincing reasons why my plan was just fine, and i had no reason to change my decision. 

for a split second, i almost bought the excuses. for just a brief moment, i wondered if God was even part of any of this. i second guessed myself. and i second guessed my God.

that was the enemy's plan. the enemy wants to deceive me, manipulate me, confuse me, discourage me, and convince me to do things in my own strength and in my own ways. because he knows i'll fail. and he knows where to put me so that i'll second guess the faithfulness of God. the ultimate faith fail.

my spirit was shaken. how did those liars get in my head? i could have easily let my negative thoughts turn me away from the good thoughts God has for me. i could have gone back to doing things my way. but i didn't. i know better. 

i flipped open my Bible. that is where i know to go for answers. i know God has plans to prosper me and give me a hope and a future. i know He is my sustainer, my provider, my Everything. i know i trust God.

when God speaks to me, i listen and obey. i don't put anything past Him! and when the enemy tries to convince me otherwise, i shut the liar up with prayer language, praising Jesus and telling my testimonies. i don't put anything past the enemy either. but my God is bigger. His plans are always good and He always wins!

Lord, I'm not going to worry about the mountains that I face. I'm not going to think "what if?" thoughts, and I'm not going to speak of being worried or fearful. I trust you. My faith in You is bigger than any fear the enemy tries to bring my way. I know I can expect great things of You! Your Word says You're always with me. Thank You, o God, for being my mighty mountain mover!  Amen. 

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; 
don't try to figure out everything on your own.

Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; 

   he's the one who will keep you on track.

Don't assume that you know it all. 

   Run to God! Run from evil!

Your body will glow with health, 

   your very bones will vibrate with life!

Proverbs 3:5-12 The Message


“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. “Truly I tell you, if anyone says 
to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ 
and does not doubt in their heart 
but believes that what they say will happen, 
it will be done for them. 
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, 
believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
Mark 11:22-24 NIV

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