Tuesday, April 14, 2015

it's common // around here lately

i keep praying that this faith we hold in common
keeps showing up in the good things we do,
and that people recognize Christ in all of it.
// philemon 1:6
we made resurrection rolls on Easter and guess what? the "tomb" is empty! praise!
we went to a church Easter festival where everyone was handed a colored piece of paper and herded into this shape as a drone circled above taking arial photos in an attempt to create "the largest human Easter egg." bless it.
it's not Easter until someone gets hit with a cascarone! can you guess who was the cascarone thrower and who was the cascarone victim here?? #confettialldayerrday

these flowers were as big as my daughter's head. i made her stand by them so i could measure. from a distance, it looked like the tree was covered in snowballs. up close, i could see the intricate details of each petal. God is a Master Gardener.

it took me 2 hours to go 37 miles the other day in a massive thunderstorm. parts of the highway were flooded. my knuckles were white and my heart was racing. i grabbed my chalk marker, scribbled a reminder on my windshield, took deep breaths, and prayed... peace.

writing a letter to his "brother" in El Salvador. be still my heart.

this dog thinks she's a cat. isn't this totally something a cat would do? it is. i didn't want to burst her bubble so i let her stay up there on top of my keyboard. dear dog, dance like nobody's watching.


i drink a chocolate milkshake every single day. except it's actually an all natural, sugar-free, dairy-free, nutrient-dense protein shake that gives me energy and helps me maintain my health. chocolate vegan shakeology for the win!

// and that, my dearies, is what's been going on around here lately! peace be with you!  xoxo


Tuesday, March 31, 2015

more beautiful than you think

dove does it again. this video was in my facebook feed recently and i clicked right away because of the title: HOW YOU THINK YOU LOOK IS NOT HOW YOU ACTUALLY LOOK.

i need to know that is true. some days more than others. judging by my unexpected reaction to this video, today was one of the I NEED IT days.

i spent a lot of years battling body dysmorphic disorder, a condition that skews how i see myself, and how i think others see me. like one of those wonky mirrors at a carnival, the filter through which i see myself has been a little distorted for as long as i can remember. in the mirror, in my head, in photographs, in real life, i always hope you don't see what i see.

but God. as my relationship with Jesus deepens, the disorder weakens. the more i know the truths about how God sees me, the more my self-perception slants that direction and the healthier i become. when i think about the way He loves me, i find my worth in Him and that is enough. He created me and i am thankful!

some days, though, the scars from BDD are tender and raw and i am reminded that i am still healing. this video just barely scratches the surface of what BDD is like, but it was awfully familiar. three minutes in and i was full-on crying. healing sometimes hurts. thank God i've come a long way in how i see myself, but i think i have a way to go. from time to time, i need this reminder. maybe you do, too.

you are more beautiful than you think.  

get your tissues, friend.

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE: https://youtu.be/litXW91UauE