Thursday, August 14, 2014

wild obedience awakening // declare 2014


this little tattered note blocked my view in the mirror every day for about eight months. Lord, fill every seat and fill every heart. it was my constant prayer for Declare 2014.

God answered my prayer. exceeding abundantly above all i could ask or think. 

250. that was the number, the target, the goal that (i thought) would indicate success. and when we didn't quite fill 250 seats, i was humbled to realize the number of ticket sales didn't matter. what God really wanted me to see was the women who were there, rather than the number of women who weren't. 

we followed the calling. was every heart filled? yes. did we point to Jesus? yes.

we witnessed hearts turning, changing, softened. we heard stories of God moving. His presence was undeniable and rich. we opened our feeble hands and surrendered to His will and He took over Declare, a conference-turned-catalyst for wild obedience. wild obedience that we might never see.

it didn't matter that i'm a "haphazard blogger" and not an event planner and completely unqualified to host a blog conference. we were obedient. we answered a call and took one step at a time toward God, compelled to bring women together with a common medium to glorify Him and make Him known.  it wasn't ever about me or kristin or heather or michelle. it was always about Jesus.

i stood on the stage on the last night of declare, raw with a desire to be anonymous, speaking into the microphone. we had been taught well all weekend- graphics, blog design, SEO, social media, writing, publishing, photography - but so much more than that. we were taught to love and give and serve and trust and surrender and worship.  

i stood in my kitchen the day after declare, raw with a desire to be obedient, making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for my kids. this song was stuck in my head and i felt like God dedicated it to me. 

"These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
and all my life I don't know that I've ever felt so alive...
Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain - We're awakening!
Here we are now with the desperate youth and pain - We're awakening!
Maybe it's called ambition, but you've been talking in your sleep about a dream we're awakening." // switchfoot: awakening {click to listen}

it's true declare was never in my plans or my dream for my life. (as if i have any say in it- ha!) so when this dream started singing to me out of nowhere, and i followed it out of wild obedience, it felt like an awakening. it feels like an awakening. and i wanna wake up kicking and screaming.  

there is a new prayer taped onto my bathroom mirror blocking my view today. it's a direct response to my heart's filling at Declare 2014: Lord, keep me deeply rooted in You.

{image source: jess connolly}

Friday, August 01, 2014

4 things // 1 week til Declare

the days are going slow. the days are flying by. just one week until The Declare Conference

i am a mixed bag of ALL. THE. FEELINGS. waves of fear, excitement, nerves, sheer gratitude, peace, panic... this happens every year. and then the day comes and i get to declare and i'm utterly relieved when i enter into a room full of super friendly women who love the Lord and share my passion for making God known.

but i wonder...when you meet me, what do you know beyond Eryn-one-of-the-Declare-hostesses? 

there is a fun little link-up over at the Declare Conference blog for getting to know other attendees before we meet face to face. these are things i might share with you if we were hanging out in my kitchen having coffee and berry crisp, or if we were at the pool with our feet in the water watching our kids play, or if we were sipping root beer floats on the last night of a blogging conference. ;) these are things about me beyond being one of the Declare hostesses...although i am incredibly humbled and honored to be that.

this is me & my husband / july 2014 
// my husband and i have been married 12 years. we have two children ages 9 and 6, and two big dogs. we live in Texas. we homeschool. (that's like 4 things in one. bonus)
// i have a degree from UTSA in communications-journalism and i was a reporter/editor for a daily newspaper before i had kids.
// i am an #endbiblepoverty advocate and the social media person for Seed Company.
// i'm a morning person. i like to start the day talking with God, drinking my black coffee, and being productive before the kids wake up.

// i'm a hugger. can't help it.
// i tend to go a little over the top with my kids' birthday parties.
// i might have a slight obsession with paper/office supplies.
// i have a mean car dance. i'm that crazy lady in the car next to you at the red light who thinks no one else can see her. why, yes, that is the bass-line of "What Does the Fox Say?" carry on.

// i have been blogging since 2005.
// i still blog like it's 2005: whatever and whenever. random, and yet intentional. i always hope to encourage someone along the way, and give God all the credit.
// capitalization. ain't nobody got time for that.
// i never check my blog stats. like never ever ever. i literally hold my hand over the screen when i open blogger so that i can't see the page views. another endearing quirk? i just want to write for the enjoyment of writing. you know the saying dance like nobody is watching? i blog like nobody is judging.


// favorite thing to do with extra energy: dance. i've got moves that you've never seen. (<- from my favorite movie. another bonus!)
// favorite season: Fall. State Fair + Pumpkin Spice Latte = my love language.
// favorite social media: instagram is my jam. twitter is next best.
// favorite thing to do with extra time: bookstore, cafe, and sending snail mail.