Thursday, April 07, 2011

something bigger is in store today

my tears have dried, my 5-minute pity party is over. my plan for my day didn't work out like i'd hoped.

i wiped my eyes, changed out of my nice clothes, and sat in silence. i watched the clock, knowing that if things had gone my way i'd be in that meeting at that very moment. the meeting i'd been planning to attend for years. the meeting that i missed because of unpredictable life roadblocks. i sat and i breathed and i prayed and...

...i heard:
be patient. your only job right now is to be your kids mom.
mamahall by mamahall, on Pix-O-Sphere
i could not ask for more. i love being my kids mom more than anything else i could possibly be doing. sure it would be nice to have Gorbella's open and running and taken care of. but that would require a lot more of my time, countless more meetings, lots of nice clothes, and probably some more unpredictable roadblocks. it would be like a full time job. away from my kids.

i re-read a text message from a sweet friend: "Something bigger is in store today."

i let a few more tears fall. then i got on the floor and played Mr. Potato Head with my son. we smiled. we laughed. we hugged. we snacked. we imagined.

and i realized... God's plan for my day was far better than i could have hoped for. i will be patient. being my kids mom is the "something bigger" God had in store today.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

"Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord...Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him," Psalm 37:4, 7 NIV