Friday, October 23, 2015

HELD: forever

about 20 years ago, after suffering a huge loss in my life, the Lord gave me a word for comfort and hope: HELD. knowing that God holds me close is all i need to know. remembering that He holds all things together is enough. when everything falls apart, God will hold me together. i know it's true because He has done it before and He is faithful.

the gift of losing my Dad is that it prompted me to pursue my Heavenly Father. the only way i didn't crumble and crash and burn after such a sudden tragic loss is because of God. i dove into my Bible and Isaiah 41:10-13 became my go-to.
"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."
when times are tough and i can barely utter a prayer, i simply cry out to God, hold me. and peace comes because i can be confident according to His Word that i am HELD.

"Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
...your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me."
Psalm 139:7, 10

for years, when facing something scary or unknown, i would take a Sharpie and scribble HELD on my hand. i did that enough times to finally decide with all certainty that i wanted it tattooed permanently on my body.

for my birthday this year, that's what i did. i went to the tattoo shop with my word, scripted in a dear friend's handwriting, and with my closest friends by my side, my word was permanently painted onto my arm. i love it. i have looked at it no less than 462,000,000 times in the past week, just needing the reminder of that truth. I AM HELD.

my mom saw my tattoo for the first time and asked me, "so, do you have to explain what it means to everyone who sees it?" and i kinda hope i do. what a blessing to get to tell people that we are held by a God who will never let go.