i knew early on that this was God's calling on my life: motherhood.
over all the responsibilities i'd had and stages i'd experienced in my 20-something years, motherhood came out on top as most important for me. that's how God planned it, for me.
i knew it when i didn't want the nurses to take my newborn infant to the nursery so i could sleep. i knew it when i couldn't go back to work after 6 weeks maternity leave. i knew it when i wasn't first in line to sign my baby up for daycare. i knew it when we made the decision to homeschool. i know it when i wake up in the morning, every day, looking forward to spending the entire day with my children.
there is an indescribable peace and contentment in knowing that God called me to be my kids' mom above all. i completely trust His calling for my life.
His calling for your life is not the same. God doesn't do carbon copies. what works for you might not work for me. what fits into my life might not fit into yours. what God brings me through won't be the same as what you go through.
and that is a-okay. i trust Him enough to respect the differences in our parenting styles. your decisions and choices are probably different than mine. but i don't see the differences as wrong or right, or one style better than another. it's simply God's different plans for our lives. as different and okay as i have green eyes you have blue. God made it that way.
i trust His calling for your life. God knows what He's doing and it's not my place to question His plans.
"for it is God who works in you to will
and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose."
it is no coincidence that just moments after i wrote this, my inbox alerted me of an incoming. it was Angie's post at (in)courage, "Why Weren't You Moses?" i read this part and it goes hand-in-hand with what i'm trying to say: "Thank God for you. Just as you are. God doesn't need you to be Moses, friend. He needs you to be you." go read the rest here and be encouraged in the calling God has for you.